Over The Weekend #40

I didn't know if I should do an over the weekend post this weekend

as it wasn't very busy or fun, in fact I spent all today in bed with chronic pain

Yesterday wasn't too bad and we went swimming and then to the in-laws

for lunch. Today my chronic illness hit me once again like a ton of bricks and I couldn't get out of bed without pain. 

TMI Warning 

but because of my PCOS, Endometriosis and cysts on my ovaries

my chronic pain seems to flare up badly around supposed ovulation.

I have huge fertility issues so I don't actually ovulate, treatment and meds that worked

when trying to conceive Oisìn haven't worked and things seems to be getting worse

instead of better. Thankfully I have a few hospital appointments with surgeons and specialists 

at the start of August to hopefully get this chronic pain sorted once and for all.

Just so thankfully for my parents and hubby this weekend

who helped me so much

My parents, hubby and Oisìn went off

to the park earlier. They had a fun time while I slept and rested.

One thing I have learned with chronic pain & fatigue

is to not fight it. Sleep and rest are sometimes the only things you can do!

Today was definitely a bad day so I stopped fighting it

and spent the day resting and reading.

I let myself get lost in this brilliant book

my seventh read of July 

So far I am loving this beautiful WW11 lovestory.

So that was my weekend hopefully chronic pain will not be bad next week

as we have a big family wedding!!

Hope your weekend was fun and pain free!

Over The Weekend #37

This weekend there isn't many pictures as I spent most of it

asleep in bed! Chronic pain mixed with flu symptoms had me exhausted and sleeping for most of the weekend!

Saturday we did manage to get to the library and park with Oisìn

we spent sometime reading, then went for coffee and then to the park.

Oisìn again this weekend is pushing boundaries and testing our patience to see what
he can and can't get away with!
He spent a good bit of time on the naughty chair again this weekend!

It has been hard as I have been laid up in bed, in alot of pain, trying to be semi-normal
to be honest Paul has took alot of the parenting duties this week and weekend
He has been fantastic looking after my chronic pain needs, been great around the house doing chores and cooking meals, while also doing all the Daddy duties.
He also brought Oisìn swimming Saturday when he knew I really need peace and pain relief!
I spent Saturday night reading and Paul also fancied an early night
he isn't much of a big reader so I was shocked when he picked this mammoth book in the library!

His and hers reading material!
So today I have mostly spent in bed, I am feeling sore but not as bad as the pass
couple of days thankfully!

Oisìn came into our bed for a little earlier and it was
so sweet to have a little nap with him.
I have spent most of today reading sleeping and watching
booktube which is my new favourite thing!

We have just finished a lovely Sunday roast that Paul cooked
I am going to have a long soak in a bubble bath and an early night
Hoping that next weekend will be better and I will finally get some relief from chronic illness.

Living With Chronic Pain

This week has been tough....hell this month has been tough..wait a minute actually this whole year so far has been tough!

I have a few different illnesses PCOS, Endometriois, IBS and Epiploic Appendagitis which individually I can deal with but together knock me for six!

The past two weeks have been especially bad as I have a flare up with my IBS,  twisted bowel and Endometriois which has left me in alot of pain and bed ridden.

I also found out last month that the cysts on my left ovary has got bigger which has me in alot of pain.

I am currently waiting on the results of more tests, while also waiting to go back to the hospital next week for more tests and CT Scans

Living with chronic pain is a constant up hill battle, so far this year I have lost count of the amount of tests, scans and appoinments I have had! I feel like am living in my bed as I'm either exhasusted from fatguie or in so much pain. I have cancelled so many plans, girl nights out, dinners, lunches and family days out as I can't move due to pain. I have bought Oisìn toys to back up for the fact that most of the time I am in too much pain or so exhausted to do much with him. Which leads to a whole load of guilt on my part which is another post in itself.
Thank goodness for childcare, his wonderful Daddy and Grandparents

I have finished up in my job where I have been for five years and while it had its up and downs I did enjoy my job. Due to my chronic pain I have had to give up work for the foreseeable future as most days I can hardly manage to get out of bed never mind head to a desk in an office!

The fact that all my chronic pain is due to invisible illnesses PCOS, Endometriois, IBS and the twist in my bowel are not something people see and only my close family and friends really understand the pain I am in. What really bothers me is when people think oh Endometriois sure that's like PMS! Time it by 100 and you might be on the right track!

Some days are worse than others, some days I can get out of bed and feel semi normal, good days I can play with my little boy, go to the park and do family days out. I love those days because they remind me of a time last year when I could function normally and enjoy life. When I could deal with my illnesses individually, when I wasn't taking pain relief and a course of different tablets each day, when I didn't spent most of my time in doctor or hospital waiting rooms, or in bed asleep.

No matter what, I believe, I will get back to that normality, it might not be today, next week or even next year but I will get there. 

I will get back to being me

Today is a bad day but there is always tomorrow

Over The Weekend #29

This weekend was a slow one

today we had lovely weather

so we spent it in the garden

I started off the weekend on Friday
when my friend and I went to
The Honeycomb cafe for brunch once again the food and service was amazing
My friend had the French toast while I had the Eggs Benedict it was Delicious

Saturday we had plans for the beach but the weather in Dublin was grey and cold
So we headed to soft play and then the library with Oisìn

Then it was home to a tea of Slimming World Taco fries

I had a bit of chronic pain all day Saturday which I put to the back of my mind

but my Saturday evening I was in alot of pain again!

It is so frustrating the pain medication works for a while but then

after a couple of weeks I am back to square one

So Paul and I cuddled up with a glass of wine and Outlander

We spent Sunday getting our back garden Summer ready

When I say we I mean mostly Paul with Oisìn playing in his garden house

and me helping when the chronic pain wasn't too bad

Hopefully the good weather will stay awhile!