Over The Weekend #46

On Friday it was our fifth wedding anniversary but this year it was sightly different as it would of also been my brother's 30th birthday. So we didn't do much to celebrate our wedding anniversary but more to celebrate what would of been my brother's 30th.

Friday morning we opened the few small gifts we got each other and laughed as we realised that we got each other the same anniversary cards! We really are morphing into each other!

We then went for breakfast to our favourite place The Honeycomb Cafe

Oisìn really enjoyed his breakfast as you can tell from the picture!

It was nice to take some time out of the day just the three of us!

We went down to my parents to help set up for that evening. My Uncle who is a fab chief made a huge chicken curry for everyone with all the trimmings! Mam had done up the back garden lovely with candles, flowers and balloons. Dad had cleared the kitchen so there was enough room for people to stand with some lovely pictures of Patrick around the room. I had the bubbly on ice and Oisìn ran around playing with his new spiderman balloon while we raised a toast of my brother.

Oisìn and Granddad have a little dance to Patrick's favourite singer Bob Marley

Oisìn once again was a trooper it was a long day for him but he took it in his stride

even the late bedtime. He was dancing with everyone but his new thing to say is NO PICTURES!

We had a lovely time celebrating my brother's birthday and I know he was partying in heaven

Happy 30th Birthday Patrick

Saturday Morning as a treat for being so good we brought Oisìn to the cinema to see Finding Dory

Aw this movie hit me in the feels! We all really enjoyed it but Oisìn loved the short called Piper the most it was so sweet!

Oisìn enjoying Finding Dory. Afterwards we went to

 my parents for a bit of lunch and I ended up staying and having a glass of wine with them. 

When I got home Paul and I ordered a takeaway and watched this new version of the 1946 movie La Belle Et La Bete. I liked it but the old one will always hold a special place in my heart

By Sunday we where all pretty shattered and Oisìn has come down with a nasty cough/cold

but we finished off the weekend with a family roast with my parents. 

We lit Patrick's candle and had a glass of bubbles while catching up on the

Goodnight Sweet Heart special.

Happy 30th Birthday In The Sky

30 years ago you made your way into this world on a bright September's day

You little brother made our lives better in every way

A little brother for me to hug and love

And I know today you are looking down from above

Brother to me a son to Mam and Dad

A wonderful person the best the world could have

You turned the grey skies into warm September gold

I thought we would have forever and watch us all grow old

But you are no longer here to share

The bond we all had but I know your here tonight

As I can feel you in the air

So as we wish you Happy Birthday we look up to the stars that shine so bright

We think of all the good times with tears in our eyes

And think to our self how really time flies

Happy Birthday Patrick

Son, Brother, Nephew, Cousin, Uncle & Friend
That your not here after all these years is still so hard to comprehend
We still miss your beautiful face
We will met again in another time & place
Your are our shinning star we feel you near even though we apart
Although we may cry and feel a little sad
You are forever smiling in our heart
We we always remember you as that kind, sweet lad

Console Celebration of Light

On Sunday evening I was once again invited to Console's annual concert

for family and friends who have lost loved ones through suicide
Last year my Mam came with me this year I managed to get three tickets and

my Father could also attend with us
It was my third year to attend and it means so much to me

giving us one evening over the festive time to just remember and celebrate

my brother who we lost in 2006

Although we miss him every day and think of him all the time

This is a beautiful two and half hours once a year to just remember, cry, think and celebrate his life

My Dad like my Mam last year was unsure

what to expect, he is not very religious and was hoping it wasn't praying for two hours!

When the he realised it was an evening of celebration, songs and poems

he really relaxed and really enjoyed his time there

This year's theme was Hope and yes there is still Hope and Light
After you go through something like this everything seems dark
There doesn't seem to be any light around but believe me there is
always a little light in the dark
It might be small but it's there growing
On the evening one candle is lit then we are all given candles
and we light them together to represent this

This year's beautiful singers included
Paul Hennessy who sang You Raise Me Up,
Liam Lawton who sang Bring Him Home,
Rebecca Storm sang You'll Never Walk Along
and Jack L sang Ole Man River
Christy Keneally who narrated the evening has such a beautiful way with words

Again I watched my parents leave a little lighter then they entered
My Dad didn't stop talking about it all the way home!
The thing that I love about this evening is that
We can grieve and let our feelings out knowing
everyone there is feeling the same way
It's nine years since our brother left this world
the pain will always be there
Knowing we have an evening like this every year
makes the pain a little more bearable
Thank you to everyone at Console for this amazing evening

Remember Suicide it not

the answer there is always

light at the end of the tunnel

please talk

Console 1800 247 247

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Remembering Patrick

Now you come back here, you scruffy little brother

Come on back here and let me kiss you goodnight

'cause I know if you were gone I'd miss the sound of laughter

And that's gonna make everything all right,

Yes, that's gonna make everything all right.

~Suzanne Vegas Brother My Brother

How I miss that laughter little brother
The time we shared is timeless and the memories always in my heart

Nine years ago today...my heart still breaks this time of year

I miss you always but this time of the year is always a little more painful

Sometimes I hear that laughter in the sound of my son

RIP My Little Brother 

I love you with all my heart

Celebration of Light Console Concert

On Sunday evening I was once again invited to Console's annual concert
for family and friends who have lost loved ones through suicide
My lovely manager in work always manages to get me tickets
It was my second year to attend and it means so much to me
This year my Mam came with me I could tell she was unsure
at first what to expect, but by the end I could see a weight had been
lifted from her shoulders

The setting for this concert is the stunning grounds of
St Patrick's Church in Maynooth College
The grounds are just stunning which make this concert
even more special

I took a few pictures before the concert
started
It was a beautiful evening of
music, song and poems
Every year there is a theme
this year's theme was
Love
There was beautiful singers
who sang beautiful words of love
Declan O' Rourke sang his well know
song Galilieo, Rebecca Storm sang Tell Me It's Not True
Niamh Kavangah sang In My life
and author Christy Kenneally
speaker on the night said
sad and true words

To watch my Mam be able to grieve
in the comfort of those around her
knowing we where all there for
the same reasons as her
was a wonderful thing
So thankful to Console
for that it's
one of the best Christmas presents
I could as for

Remember Suicide it not
the answer there is always
light at the end of the tunnel
please talk

Console 1800 247 247
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Week In Pictures 21/52

This week was a really nice
one!! Here is our
week in pictures!

Saturday:

I had a bit of a head cold on Saturday

so Paul and Oisín went out to watch the football

I had a whole afternoon to myself

and I done nothing but watch this old classic

Cleopatra and drink tea!

Sunday:

We had a family dinner to celebrate

my Mammy's birthday

Paul made 6 hour slow roast park 

it was amazing!

Watching Downton Abbey with some

bubbles...bliss!

Monday:

This little man has been awake since 5am!
Happy as can be playing, laughing and babbling!
I need sleep!

Tuesday:

Another early morning wake up at 6am
What am I going to do? This is my
4th cup of coffee!

Wednesday:

Not impressed that he has too keep his
hat on!!

Thursday:

Remembering my little brother
on his 8th anniversary 

Friday:

Walking to work this morning and Autumn
is really here!

He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother....

The road is long

With many a winding turns

That leads us to who knows where

Who knows where

But I'm strong

Strong enough to carry him

He ain't heavy, he's my brother

So on we go

His welfare is of my concern

No burden is he to bear

We'll get there

For I know

He would not encumber me

He ain't heavy, he's my brother

If I'm laden at all

I'm laden with sadness

That everyone's heart

Isn't filled with the gladness

Of love for one another

It's a long, long road

From which there is no return

While we're on the way to there

Why not share

And the load

Doesn't weigh me down at all

He ain't heavy he's my brother

He's my brother

He ain't heavy, he's my brother

He ain't heavy, he's my brother

Eight years today since you left us and I miss you

more than I can say

Your nephew is sitting at my feet

as I write this

and it breaks my heart he will never

be swung over your head or hold your hand

or play with his Uncle Patrick

I named him after you Oisín Patrick

please be his Guardian Angel and

watch over him

I love you always

RIP

My Week In Pictures 17/52

I am doing this post early this week
as early tomorrow morning I am
on a little trip with my Mam
to do a tour of Coronation Street
and Emmerdale sets
This week has been a bit stressful
with work and Oisin teething

Saturday:

This little guy took over the sofa
while watching The Kardashians
of all things!

Sunday:

Sunday morning weetabix craziness! 

Monday:

This week teething really
kicked in for Oisín and he
hasn't been himself
not eating, sleeping and not taking
bottles. This is how
he fell asleep Monday evening!

Tuesday:

Not quite Summer
Not quite Autumn!

Wednesday:

Remember my brother and all
who have lost there lives to suicide
to on World Suicide Awareness Day

Thursday:

I really really need this after a morning
of packing, work and teething baby!

Christmas Favourites Week 2

Week 1 of this didn't get of to a good start as it was posted late due to me being hospital with slow labour pains! Here is Week Two:

My Christmas Favourites Week 2:

My Favourite Christmas Decoration Of The Week:

The little bear on a rocking horse, this was one of the last ever presents I got off my little brother before he passed away. I treasure this little Christmas ornament and keep it beside our candle of Patrick. It's amazing how a small little ornament can me so much and bring back so many memories.

My Favourite Christmas Tradition Of The Week:

Counting down the days on our chocolate advent calendar!

My Favourite Christmas Movie Of The Week:

Its basically the Muppet's reworking of The Christmas Carol with Michael Caine as Scrooge and Kermit as Bob Cratchit. It has great song which I am not ashamed to say I know all the words to such has "Scrooge", " One More Sleep till Christmas", "It Feels Like Christmas" and "Thankful Heart".

My Favourite Christmas TV Special Of The Week:

The TV special is how I feel at the moment The Royle Family first Christmas special. I feel like Denise Royle ready to pop!! I love this show about a normal laid back family on Christmas and they do what we all do Christmas day eat, drink and watch TV!

My Favourite Christmas Song Of The Week:

Favourite song this week is Slade Merry Christmas!! I doesn't feel like Christmas until I hear this song!!

What We Got Up To This Month - October 2013

This month after the craziness of last month was a nice quite month! I did have allot of hospital appointments, shopping trips and was put of bed rest! We are not doing anything for Halloween think we are going to sit in and watch a scary movie. Hope you all have a happy and safe Halloween.
Here is what we got up to in the storm filled month of October.

- This man makes me laugh and smile when I don't want to!
- Lots and lots of shopping trips!
- Remembering my brother Patrick x
- Nesting for blip was in full swing this month!
- Eating yummy soup on a cold day
- Duvet day movies!
- Watching bump and blip getting bigger!
- Lovely bubble baths just what my achy joints need!
- Getting cosy with candles and downton abbey!
- Packing my hospital bag
- Stormy weather!!

So October you came and went so quick, with oranges and red coloured leafs and stormy weather. November we are ready for you!